Sanctuary for the Abused
Friday, February 24, 2006
What is Sexual Addiction?
Sexual addiction can be understood by comparing it to other types of addiction. Chemical addicts find they need drugs to feel normal. In sexual addiction, a parallel situation exists. Sex provides the "high" and addicts become dependent on this sexual high to feel normal. They substitute healthy relationships for unhealthy ones and opt for temporary pleasure rather than the deeper quality of "normal" intimate relationships.
Sexual addiction follows the same progressive nature of other addictions. Sexual addicts struggle to control their behaviors and experience despair over constant failure to do so. Their loss of self-esteem grows, adding to the need to escape further into addictive behavior. Sexual addicts feel tremendous guilt and shame about their out-of-control behavior, and live in constant fear of discovery.
What behaviors indicate sexual addiction?
A pattern of out-of-control sexual behavior.
Examples include: Compulsive masturbation, indulging in pornography, having multiple affairs, exhibitionism, dangerous sexual practices, soliciting prostitutes/escorts, anonymous sex, compulsive sexual episodes, phone sex and voyeurism.
Experiencing severe consequences due to sexual behavior, and an inability to stop despite these adverse consequences.
Consequences include: Loss of partner or spouse, severe marital or relationship problems, loss of career opportunities, unwanted pregnancies, suicidal ideation, exposure to AIDS or other sexually transmitted disease.
Persistent pursuit of self-destructive behavior.
Sexual addicts understand the consequences of their actions but cannot stop acting out. They often seem to have a willfulness about them and an attitude that prevents them from dealing with the consequences of their behavior until it is too late.
On-going desire or effort to limit sexual behavior.
Sex addicts often create external barriers in an attempt to control their sexual behavior. Examples include moving to new cities, neighborhoods, or a new environment. Many immerse themselves in religion to soothe their shame, but their acting out continues. Sexual anorexia is also attempted in which they allow themselves no sexual expression at all.
Sexual obsession and fantasy as a primary coping strategy.
By fantasizing, the sex addict can maintain a constant level of arousal. Along with obsession, the two behaviors can create a kind of analgesic "fix".
Regularly increasing the amount of sexual experience because the current level of activity is no longer sufficiently satisfying.
Sexual addiction is often progressive and while many sex addicts may attempt to control their behavior for a period of time, the behavior returns and quickly escalates to levels beyond those previously experienced. Bingeing occurs to the point of emotional exhaustion, and withdrawal for sex addicts can parallel the physical pain experienced by those withdrawing from opiate addiction.
Severe mood changes related to sexual activity.
Sex addicts experience intense shifts in mood, often due to the despair and shame of unwanted sex.
Inordinate amounts of time spent obtaining sex, being sexual, and recovering from sexual experiences.
Two sets of activities organize a sexual addict's day. One involves obsession, devoting them to initiating sex, and actually being sexual, the other is dealing with consequences of the sexual behavior.
Neglect of important social, occupational, or recreational activities because of sexual behavior.
As more of the addict's energy is focused on relationships with sexual potential, healthy relationships and activities suffer from neglect.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
There are only three possibilities for the future of any relationship:-
Stay as you are.
Change how you are.
That's it, there are no other options. So if you can't stand it the way it is and you don't want to go, your only option is change and to quote the oldest idea in therapy "You can't change others, you can only change yourself". If you can't both agree on change it is down to you. Yes that may seem unfair, you may be in the right but that will not make any difference.
Here are some ideas and questions that may.
1. It is better to feel love than to feel right.
And sometimes that is the choice, facts rarely change relationships, being right rarely change feelings, so if you want to experience more love, both giving and receiving forget, who is right and concentrate on being loving.
2. What do you bring to this relationship that is unhelpful?
Usually people can write a long list in answer to this question......for their partner, but that is not what is being asked. Write down three times "What I bring to this relationship that is unhelpful is......" and finish the sentence with three different answers. Then consider if you are willing to make changes.
3. What else could this mean?
A good question to ask when you feel upset. We are often quick to give a negative meaning to something and voicing our opinion of the "true" meaning gives it strength. Stop and ask the question above, there is no right answer but you could choose a meaning that makes you feel more at ease with an event or a comment. So often things done or said to us are not about us at all but about the situation of the other person, and, to quote the title of a popular book "What you think of me is none of my business"
4. Acting as if.
An interesting experiment and a possible way to bring about change in yourself and in others is to act as if life was already just the way you wanted it to be. Since the only thing you can hope to control is your own reaction to a situation, (and some of us have great difficulty even doing that), it's worth testing this out for a day or two to see if it makes a real difference.
5. Who is responsible for this relationship?
No, the answer is not "You are", this is a relationship, the answer is "You both are" but does that make it 50% : 50%. The best way to make a relationship thrive is for you both to take 100% responsibility for it. That means you cannot hold back because your partner is giving less than you because you regard yourself as 100% responsible for everything. It may not be fair, it is not good maths but it does seems to work.
6. The greatest love.
The greatest love you can show others may sometimes be to leave them alone. This can be the most difficult thing to do for those we care about, particularly when they are going through difficult times and of course it's not always the right approach. It's particularly difficult with children but sometimes the best way to help is just to do nothing.
7. Snapshots and video.
We have all seen photographs of ourselves that do not do us justice. Usually these are the ones we throw away, we don't see them as being "us". On the other hand a video is more likely to give a more accurate impression of who we are, it is taken over a period of time. Why then do we so often hang on to the snapshot of the careless comment from others, the unintended insult and the harsh word later taken back? Let's throw these away along with the bad photos. If the words do not fit the usual attitude of the other person then discard them, don't keep the worst, keep the best.
8. No matter how thin you slice it.
No matter how thin you slice it there are always two sides. It's a good test of your understanding to see if you can explain the position of someone with whom you disagree so they confirm that is how they feel. Try it out and ask the other person to coach you until you get it right. Understanding is not the same as agreement but it is a big step towards resolving differences.
9. More of the same.
If you have a problem in your relationship there is little point in doing more of what has not worked in the past, more of the same action almost always produces more of the same result. So it is time to try something different, change creates change. Notice what tends to make things better and do more of it, notice what tends to make things worse and do less of it. Simple advice but over time it can transform a relationship.
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." (Albert Einstein)
10. Limit your relationships.
Limit your relationships to what you have in common. No relationship, however strong, can provide each party with all that they need. Most relationships require new input from outside experiences and these do not always have to be shared. There is a danger that in stretching the relationship to involve everything the parties end up doing things they neither like nor enjoy. This can be the breeding ground for resentment, a major relationship killer.
11. The Miracle question.
If you were to wake up tomorrow morning and your relationship was exactly the way you wanted it, and that includes your contribution to it, and yet you had no memory of how it was before, what would be different about you? What would you be feeling? How would you act? How would others react to you? It's good to know what is tied up in our problems and one way to find out is to imagine our life without them. Sometimes our problems restrict us but sometimes they also protect us. See where the answer to "The miracle question" takes you.
12. How to have a bad relationship:
Try lectures and advice, especially "for your own good"
Say "Why don't you just try to.....?
Try hints, pleading and begging.
Use long silences as in "Just see how you have made me feel"
Try a sentence that starts with any of the following:
"If you really loved me" or "If you still love me"
"After all I have done for you"
"Anyone with any sense"
Put your life on hold waiting for your partner to change.
Best of all, compare your relationship with that of another couple.
13. Just because you experience a problem in your relationship it does not mean your relationship is the problem.
No one comes to any relationship without a history and while that history may not belong to the relationship it usually affects it. When two histories meet each other the problems that arise get complicated. If you find the same problem in a number of your relationships then you can be fairly sure the problem is you and not the relationship so work on yourself and leave the relationship alone to sort itself out.
14. Relationships can't provide everything.
It must be fantastic to have a relationship that provides all your wants and needs, everything you require, in one warm, secure, permanent liaison. It must be like having a home that gives you all you desire, so much so that you never need to leave it....!
Relationships can give us great joy and satisfaction but they can't provide everything and ultimately we and not our relationship are responsible for our happiness. A relationship also needs the stimulation of new, external experiences or it will stultify and decay.
15. Love never dies a natural death.
Being "in love" can settle down over the years but love itself, if nurtured, need never die. What can kill love is a diet of negativity, particularly negative comments. Communication either builds or destroys, the choice is ours.
16. How can you ruin a relationship and grow old quickly?
The answer, have too many rules.
It is said that every cigarette you smoke costs you five minutes off your life. Well there is a good chance that every rule you have about how things should or should not be costs you many times more than that and such rules can damage and destroy your relationships as well.
Relationships, and life, need to flow and the more blocks we put in the way the more likely we are to prevent the flow. Things that don't flow tend to decay.
17. Let go of the past or let go of the future.
Amazingly, some people keep a list in their head of times they were let down by their friends or partners, a list of various slights and transgressions. These same people have the ability to choose items from their list to throw into situations at a time when they can create the maximum damage.
Of course these are "other people" and you and I have never done anything like that. But just in case we are tempted down this path let's remember it's our choice, we either let go of the past or the future.
18. Sometimes the worst thing.
Sometimes the worst thing you can do for those you love are the things they could or should do for themselves.
This is only true sometimes because it's great to offer help to others and it makes us feel good when we have supported those we love. But it's a thin line between supporting and undermining
however well intentioned we may be. It's good to check this out sometimes.
19. Notice what works best, and do more of it.
Take a few moments to review your relationship, or your life, and notice what works best for you. What's different about what works compared with what does not?
Suppose nothing works? Try doing something different and notice if it improves things or makes them worse. If it's an improvement, do more of it, if not, try doing something else.
20. Loving someone can be a decision you make.
In the early years love can be a heady mixture of passion and desire, it's exciting, stimulating and for some people this can last for a lifetime.
For others such intensity can become too dominating and it is just as valid to make a decision to love someone as it is to be head over heels "in love". People are different and there is no right or wrong way to conduct a relationship.
21. Strike when the iron is cold.
When is the worst time to deal with anger? When you're angry. Same is true of jealousy and many other emotions.
The trouble is if we don't feel it we don't feel we need to deal with it. Yet when we are in the grip of an emotion is when we have the least resources to deal with that emotion. Its a skill to learn, to return to problem areas when the strong feelings have gone and look at or discuss with someone else how such difficulties might be dealt with if they arise in the future. Not easy but better than trying to deal with anger when you are angry.
22. Loving being in love.
Some people just love to be in love, and who can blame them, it's a great state, emotions run high, it's so easy to feel fully alive. It's worth remembering there is a difference between loving being in love and loving the person you are in love with. If you don't make the distinction the chances are your relationship won't last.
23. Relationships are a mirror.
Relationships can reflect back to us aspects of ourselves we don't much care for, and then it's easy to blame our partner for how we end up feeling. But the image, however distorted, is still ours. You don't have to stay in a relationship that distorts who you are but it can be worth spending time checking the image to see how much of it is a true reflection of who you are.
24. Learn to play Mastermind.
It's the game where one player sets out colored pegs behind a screen and the other player tries to reproduce the color and the order, at first by guessing and then based on clues, white pegs for a correct color in the wrong place, black pegs for a correct color in the right place. Without the clues the player would just go on guessing and the game could take a lifetime.
There are clues in our relationships, responses to things that work and different responses to things that don't. If we notice the clues we are more likely to get the result we seek, if we don't it could take a lifetime.
25. Dangerous animals.
The sign in the zoo reads, "This animal is dangerous, it defends itself if attacked."
There's usually a reason for the aggression of other people and it's good to ask the question "Why do they/I feel attacked in this situation?" There are insights here and we can chose to modify either our behaviour or our reactions.
26. Relationship exercise 1.
This won't work for every couple but a 1 -10 scale can be of help in enhancing relationships.
You can take your relationship as a whole or just one aspect eg communication, love life etc. Think about your current level of satisfaction on the 1 -10 scale with 1 as the lowest possible score.
Let's say your result for your chosen area is a 5/10. The question to be asked is not "Why am I not at a 10/10?" but "What would a 5.5/10 or a 6/10 look like?" A maximum score may not be available right now but that doesn't mean improvement is not possible.
27. Relationship exercise 2.
For couples who find conversations difficult, perhaps they often end in an argument, here's a way that might break the pattern.
Agree a length of time for this exercise, if you can't agree it's 30 mins, and then toss a coin to see who goes first. That person holds the coin and can speak for as long as they wish and can say whatever is on their mind. They can pause for thought but the other person is not allowed to comment until they hold the coin. The coin is then handed over and the process repeats itself until the 30 mins is up. It's a good idea immediately afterwards to have a further 15 mins
28. Relationship exercise 3.
This is a very challenging exercise, just try it and you'll see why, it's certainly not for everyone.
Sit opposite each other with knees almost touching and for an agreed period, at first perhaps no more than 5 mins just make and hold eye contact without talking or moving, just being together. Note what thoughts and feelings come up, try not to dwell on them but let them go to see what comes up next. Again, take 15 mins apart before discussing or perhaps agree not to discuss at all. (There is a version to do on your own with just a mirror.)
29. Relationships don't solve personal problems.
Although they can do a very good job at helping people avoid looking at them.
The solution to whatever issues we have to face is our responsibility not that of our partners and we can easily adversely affect our relationship when we expect them to sort out the problems that don't belong there. It's a simple question to sk; "Did I feel like this before I started this relationship?" The answer will help you to distinguish between personal problems and relationship
30. Don't give up being you in order to be with someone else.
If you look in the mirror and no longer recognise the person you see looking back, if you find you've given up on your friends. your interests, your beliefs in order to stay in a relationship it's time to either create significant changes or give serious consideration to getting out.
31. Forget the potential.
Here's another good relationship question. "If I knew my partner or proposed partner was never going to change, would I be happy to spend the rest of my life with them?"
If the honest answer, warts and all, is YES then go ahead and have fun. If the answer is NO then you owe it to yourself to stop and consider if this is the right person for you.
32. Commitment and compatibility.
Both these things are essential for a successful relationship, it's not an either or situation. The greatest commitment will not overcome a basic lack of compatibility and a relationship without this element can lead to a lifetime of unhappiness for both partners. And just because someone is compatible does not mean they are committed or possibly even capable of commitment. The pig and the hen are both compatible in making bacon and eggs but while the hen is involved, only the pig is committed.
33. Change can either be an event or a process.
Sometimes change occurs in an instant, eg a major event, a sudden occurrence and life never seems the same again. Yet often the change has been going on for some time unnoticed, it's the realisation of the change that is sudden.
More often change is a process and we may not be aware of it until we look back, eg, a loss of weight of a pound a month is not much but over a year it's almost a stone. So look back a year or five and take stock, see what has changed and ask yourself if you like the direction in which your life is going. If not it's time to make changes so in a year or five's time it all seems a lot different.
34 Some things have to be-
Some things have to be understood. It can help to have reasons even if nothing changes. Inquiry and exploration are useful tools for understanding and are important in a relationship.
Some things have to be accepted they are just are not going to change and it's good to recognise this and stop wasting your life waiting for something that won't happen. It may be useful to understand and let go.
Some things have to be forgiven. It may not be enough to just understand, it may not be enough to just accept you may have to forgive in order to move on. Not so much for the sake of the other party but for your own sake.
35 Every relationship is unique.
Wherever you read or told about relationships, and that certainly applies to the ideas on this site, please remember it may not apply to you. If you think about your complexity as an individual and then add another party to the equation the possibilities are beyond comprehension. So don't try and fit your relationship into someone else's understanding. Ask the simple question "Does this apply to me?" If not, move on.
36 We teach people how to treat us.
Other people can be so unfair so judgemental so critical and it's easy to put all responsibility on to others and not look at our own role. If we see ourselves as teachers and other people as our students being taught how to treat us we may get a very different view about our relationships. We may also begin to change are teaching methods so that we get the results that it is better suited to our needs. There are no learning disabilities, there are only teaching disabilities. (Richard Bandler)
37. Would you live with you?
It's a tough question, would you live with you? It's not meant as a "beat yourself up" question but as a way of honestly looking at your role in whatever relationship is causing you trouble. Here are some possible answers:-
Yes, I'd be very happy to live with me; so look at what your partner brings or doesn't bring to the relationship or how you spark each other off.
Yes, I'd live with me but I would find a few things difficult; a chance to see what you bring that is unhelpful and decide if you want to make changes.
No, I would not want to live with me; well what changes would you have to make to come up with a different answer? Are these changes you can make for yourself? Are you willing to seek help outside?
"Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself." ( Leo Tolstoy)
38. There are worse things than having a relationship end. And here are some of them:-
Wasting your life waiting for someone else to change.
Living with violence or emotional abuse.
Watching your children being damaged.
Losing your own identity, friends, interests.
Its not easy to move on but sometimes it's what life asks of you.
"You gain strength courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stopped to look fear in the face." (Eleanor Roosevelt.)
39. What you resist persists.
We have all experienced repeating unhelpful patterns in our lives, not just in relationships but in the way we deal with our finances, our eating habits etc. Each time we make up our minds next time it's going to be different, and then next time it's just the same.
When that is the pattern the chances are that there is something we are resisting, some underlying cause we are not looking at, some deeper reason we need to examine. You can't change things you don't own up to so here's something you can do right now:-
Take an issue where you repeat patterns despite all your efforts and ask yourself what it is you are resisting, ask two or three times and write down the answers. If nothing comes up ask your self what you would write down if you were going to write something and then write that down.
OK, this does not solve the problem but it might well tell you where to start looking for a solution.
40. Avoiding arguments.
It's almost impossible to argue with someone who is not concerned about being right. An argument is a process that relies on the parties being attached to different outcomes, if one, or both parties are happy to enjoy an exploration without attachment to the outcome then no argument can take place. So, it's a choice, sometimes it's good to stand firm and live with the disagreement, sometimes it's fine to give way and often it's time to respect differences and move on top other areas.
41. You're supposed to make me happy.
There used to be a cartoon in my counselling room, it showed a couple pointing at each other and sharing the caption "You're supposed to make me happy." It might just be the biggest myth about relationships, that if you are not happy already, having a relationship will change everything. A better approach is to take responsibility for your own happiness and be willing to share this with your partner.
42. Be satisfied with small changes over a long period.
It's a shared human failing, we want it perfect and we want it now and it's interesting how that urgency can prevent us from achieving our dreams. It's true of many things in life but particularly true of relationships, they rarely change overnight. It probably took you a long time to end up where you are now so what makes you believe any change will be instant.
You may not be able to change your destination immediately but you can change your direction right now, and a small change which continues will mean you end up in a very different place in the future. You almost certainly overestimate what you can achieve in a month but equally underestimate what you can achieve in a year.
So, look for small, positive changes in your relationship and work to expand them, concentrate on what does work and make more of it rather than always looking at the problems.
43. Things to avoid in relationships.
Here are some things it's best to avoid:-
Relationships with people who don't make you feel good after a few encounters, its not likely to change.
Relationships where, most of the time, you feel like the parent and the other party like your child, it's not good for either of you.
Relationships where you feel you are having to rescue the other person all the time, it does not breed respect on either side.
Relationships with people who have fatal flaws they are not doing anything about: affairs, drugs, alcohol, fatal flaws are usually just that, fatal.
44. 10 things to know about relationships and sex.
The first thing to know about sex is that it was meant to be fun and if it's not then you need to do something about that.
The second things to know about sex is that it doesn't have to be a big part of your relationship and it's OK if it is.
The third thing to know about sex is that relationships don't last, long term, because of a great sex life, it's not enough.
The fourth thing to know about sex is that there are no external norms, if what you do works for both of you then that's fine.
The fifth thing to know about sex is that it's just as important to please yourself as it is to please your partner.
The fifth, sixth, seventh, eight, ninth and tenth thing to know about sex is that it was meant to be fun, don't make it too serious.
45. Don't smother each other.
Relationships are very, very important, a great relationship is one of the best experiences life has to offer. But it's not the only experience and relationships benefit from each partner bringing in something new from time to time. If your relationship feels a bit dead it might be time to get out more and not always together. Most things don't grow so well in the shade so let your relationship be important but not everything otherwise it might just die from lack of nutrition.
46. Every unkind act is a cry for help.
Now I'm not sure this is true every time and it certainly doesn't feel like it when I'm on the receiving end. But when I stop to think about times when I have acted unkindly it has been because I have been feeling bad about myself, so perhaps it is a cry for help. What I do know is that my relationships work better when I assume this to be true, I am less likely to get upset and more likely to meet the needs of the other party and so have a better time with them.
47. Work can be easier than relationships.
Work, and here I mean any activity, your job, the garden, keeping fit, while good in itself can be a great way on distracting us from dealing with the issues in our lives and nowhere is this more true than in our relationships. So when you are "too busy" to be with someone you care about just stop and ask yourself this: "If I was using this work as a way of avoiding something what would that something be?" You may conclude the work pressure is genuine, and that's often true, but at least check it out and don't necessarily accept the first answer that comes up for you.
48. Why do we choose to live with suffering?
At first sight this seems a strange idea, that we would choose to live with suffering. One of the attractions of being in a relationship with someone can be the certainty it gives us, even if
many of our experiences are not good ones. There are many people who, despite a poor relationship which gives them little, find familiar suffering preferable to the fear of the unknown.
Becoming aware of this and facing the fear involved in moving on can be the start of important changes.
49. You are more than the drama.
You are more than the drama in your life, you are certainly more than the drama in your relationships. There is a place within you where you can stand back, be distant from the unfolding events and just observe what is happening without actively participating. It is from this place that patterns can be noticed and reactions, our own and others, more fully understood. It is from this place that changes can be planned and resources gathered. Sometimes it's good to replay the past in our mind from the point of view of an observer and allow the insights to arise without the need for a reaction or an involvement.
50. Relationships, like life, don't last forever.
There's many a person whose life is filled with regret at the things they wished they had said to someone who is no longer with them. They are rarely words of criticism, hardly ever words spoken in anger, these are the things we tend to say at the time, in the heat of the moment. But for some reason that is common to so many people, particularly in western society, it's the expressions of love, the words of congratulations and support we hold back from and regret not saying when it is too late.
Today you could change that.
© 2004 David Mills.
Friday, February 17, 2006
Typical Kinds of Love Addicts
In the last decade, a lot has changed in the world of love addiction. Not that love addiction itself has changed. It is pretty much the same insidious disorder it always has been. What has changed is how the world looks at it. Twenty years ago, our understanding of love addiction was still emerging out of our understanding of codependency. Therefore, love addiction and codependency seemed to be one in the same. However, today we understand that this is not true. Love addiction stands alone, and codependency is only one of several underlying personality disorders. To make it perfectly clear how one love addict differs from another LAA has prepared the following list:
Obsessed Love Addicts (OLAs) cannot let go, even if their partners are:
Unavailable emotionally or sexually; afraid to commit; cannot communicate; unloving; distant; abusive; controlling and dictatorial; ego-centric; selfish; or addicted to something outside the relationship (hobbies, drugs, alcohol, sex, someone else, gambling, shopping etc.)
Codependent Love Addicts (CLAs) are the most widely recognized.
They fit a pretty standard profile. Most of them suffer from low self-esteem and have a certain predictable way of thinking, feeling and behaving. This means that from a place of insecurity and low self-esteem, they try desperately to hold on to the people they are addicted to using codependent behavior. This includes enabling, rescuing, caretaking, passive-aggressive controlling, and accepting neglect or abuse. In general, CLAs will do anything to "take care" of their partners in the hope that they will not leave-or that someday they will reciprocate.
Relationship Addicts (RAs), unlike other love addicts, are no longer in love with their partners but they cannot let go. Usually, they are so unhappy that the relationship is usually affecting their health, spirit and emotional well being. Even if their partner batters them, and they are in danger, they cannot let go. They are afraid of being alone. They are afraid of change. They do not want to hurt or abandon their partners. This can be described as "I hate you; don't leave me."
Narcissistic Love Addicts (NLAs) use dominance, seduction and withholding to control their partners. Unlike codependents, who accept a lot of discomfort, narcissists won�t put up with anything that interferes with their happiness. They are self-absorbed and their low self-esteem is masked by their grandiosity. Furthermore, rather than seeming to obsess about the relationship, NLAs appear aloof and unconcerned. They do not appear to be addicted at all. Rarely do you even know that NLAs are hooked until you try to leave them. Then they will no longer be aloof and uncaring. They will panic and use anything at their disposal to hold on to the relationship -including violence. Many professionals have rejected the idea that narcissists can be love addicts. This may be because they rarely come in for treatment. However, if you have ever seen how some narcissists react to perceived or real abandonment, you will see that they are indeed "hooked."
Ambivalent Love Addicts (ALAs suffer) from avoidant personality disorder,or what SLAA calls emotional anorexia. They don't have a hard time letting go, they have a hard time moving forward. They desperately crave love, but at the same time they are terrified of intimacy. This combination is agonizing. ALAs come in different forms too. They are listed below.
Torch Bearers are ALAs who obsess about someone who is unavailable. This can be done without acting out (suffering in silence) or by pursuing the person they are in love with. Some torch bearers are more addicted than others. This kind of addiction feeds on fantasies and illusions. It is also known as unrequited love.
Saboteurs are ALAs who destroy relationships when they start to get serious or at whatever point their fear of intimacy comes up. This can be anytime: before the first date, after the first date, after sex, after the subject of commitment comes up -whenever.
Seductive Withholders are ALAs who always come on to you when they want sex or companionship. When they become frightened, or feel unsafe, they begin withholding companionship, sex, affection - anything that makes them feel anxious. If they leave the relationship when they become frightened, they are just Saboteurs. If they keep repeating the pattern of being available/unavailable, they are seductive withholders.
Romance Addicts are ALA who are addicted to multiple partners. Unlike sex addicts, who are trying to avoid bonding altogether, romance addicts bond with each of their partners "to one degree or another" even if the romantic liaisons are short-lived or happening simultaneously. By "romance" I mean sexual passion and pseudo emotional intimacy. Please note that while romance addicts bond with each of their partners to a degree, their goal (besides getting high off of romance and drama) is to avoid commitment or bonding on a deeper level with one partner. Often romance addicts are confused with sex addicts.
A Note about ALAs: Not all avoidants are love addicts. If you accept your fear of intimacy and social situations, and do not get hooked on unavailable people, or just keep your social circle small and unthreatening you are not necessarily an ALA. But if you eat your heart out over some unavailable person year after year, or sabotage one relationship after another, or have serial romantic affairs, or only feel close when you are with another avoidant, you may be an Ambivalent Love Addict.
Combinations: You may find that you have more than one type of love addiction. Many of these types overlap and combine themselves with other behavioral problems. For instance, you may be a codependent, alcoholic love addict. Or a love/relationship addict. The important thing is to identify your own personal profile so you know what you are dealing with.
Robert was a love addict, relationship addict, romance addict and sex addict. He was married but did not want to divorce his wife of twenty years even though he was not in love with her (relationship addiction) His hobby was masturbating to pornography when his wife was not home (sex addiction). He had affairs with several other women simultaneously without his wife finding out. He really cared about each of these women (romance addict). One day he met Jennifer and fell in love with her. It did not take long before he was obsessed with her. She did not want to be with him because he was married, so he began stalking and harassing her (love addict). Robert finally got into recovery, divorced his wife, gave up the pornography and affairs and married the woman he was obsessed with. At first his jealousy was out of control, but after a few years of therapy and 12-Step meetings he began to trust his new wife. Because she was mature, well-grounded and had high self esteem, the relationship began to normalize. Today, all of Robert's addictions are in remission.
Narcissists and Codependents: It is very common for love addicts to end up in relationships with other love addicts. The most common kind of love-addicted couple is, as you might have guessed, the codependent and the narcissist. In the beginning, narcissists are often seductive. After they have hooked their codependent partners, however, they change. Here is an example of a narcissist/codependent relationship.
Nancy and James met at a bar and were instantly attracted to one another. Within days, Nancy (the codependent) had fallen madly in love with James (the narcissist). From the beginning, she was helpful, nurturing, attentive and went out of her way to make him happy. James, on the other hand, appeared to be able to take or leave the relationship after they made love. He canceled dates, neglected to return phone calls, saw other women, became very domineering and for the most part seemed aloof and detached. Still, six months later, Nancy married James because she was in love with him and secretly hoped that he would change.
After Nancy and James were married, the pattern of neglect continued - especially his affairs with other women. When Nancy objected, James bullied her until she stopped nagging him about it. This went on for years. Nancy tried to save her marriage by placating James in every way she could think of, but he continued to do what he wanted. Eventually, Nancy stopped loving James and thought about leaving him, but she just couldn't bring herself to face the loneliness of being single again. This was better than nothing she thought. So she continued her codependent behavior, always trying to keep James happy and comfortable even if it meant sacrificing her own happiness in the process. Eventually, Nancy sought counseling and within a year she felt strong enough to leave James. He had other ideas. The first time Nancy brought up the subject of divorce he laughed at her. Then he threatened her verbally. The day she presented him with divorce papers, he beat her so badly she had to go to the hospital. It seems that despite his lack of love and respect for Nancy, James was addicted to her and the relationship they shared. He also felt that if he couldn't have her, nobody else could.
Eventually, Nancy got away from James even though he stalked her for months - threatening to kill her if she didn't come back. Thankfully, he eventually let go. However, you only have to read the newspapers to realize that such a lethal combination of codependency and narcissism can lead to homicide.
Switch-hitting: Many love addicts switch-hit because they have more than one underlying personality disorder. For instance, a relationship addict may play the role of a codependent for years, then finally get out of the relationship and fall in love with someone who is unavailable. Suddenly, our relationship addict is an obsessed love addict or a torchbearer. Even narcissists switch-hit - believe it or not. For years they be in one relationship after another playing the role of the dominant, uncaring partner. However, if they ever fall hard, they can easily turn into a torchbearer or obsessed love addict. If they fall in love with another narcissist then they have no choice but to become the codependent love addict in the relationship because the narcissist will not stand for anything else. Even ambivalent love addicts will start obsessing instead of running away when they are addicted.
Love addicts switch-hit because of separation anxiety. If another form of behavior is necessary to placate a partner and to hold on the him or her, the love addict will adopt that behavior. Is it an act? Sometimes . . . but if the love addict has weak personality boundaries, they may actually become the other person while under the spell of the addiction.. The point here is not to identify all the kinds of switch-hitting going on, or to even explain it, but ... point it out and learn from it.
Conclusion: The Importance of All This: If all this seems complicated it is. And, to be honest, the only reason it is important is because it makes a difference when it comes to treatment.
Codependent love addicts, for instance, need a boost in self-esteem and self-acceptance. They must learn to think better of themselves.
Narcissistic love addicts, on the other hand, use grandiosity to bolster their low self-esteem and need to come down to earth. They need to learn some humility and how to become "unselfish."
Ambivalent Love Addicts need to find a healthy relationship and stay engaged it even when their fear threatens to overwhelm them. Most of all, understanding as much as you can about love addiction will form the basis of your Fourth Step Inventory in LAA or lay the groundwork for professional therapy.
Susan Peabody is the author of Addiction to Love: Overcoming Obsession and Dependency in Relationships. For more about her writings and her forthcoming book, The Art of Changing, see her website http://www.brightertomorrow.net/
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Soul Murder: The Effects of Child Abuse and Deprivation
Leonard Shengold, M.D., 1989, Fawcett Columbine, New York, Paperback.
Reviewed by John A. Speyrer
I found Soul Murder in an unlikely place -- on a discounted book table at a local Wal-Mart store. Like many psychoanalysts, Dr. Sheingold seems to have an anal fixation, but I'm sure he would protest and insist that those were obsessions he uncovered in his patients!
Profound, scholarly, and beautifully written, Soul Murder is largely devoid of psychoanalytic jargon and clinical standoffishness.
Dr. Shengold states that from the time of Freud onward we read little of actual child abuse in psychoanalytic writings. However, beginning in the 1960's there seemed to be the beginnings of an abandonment of both analytic theory and the euphemistic use of the term childhood seduction. Instead we notice the beginnings of the strong belief that "the child was abused."
In the second half of the book, anal drives and complexes have been largely left behind (pun intended!) as the author begins studying the effects of child abuse in the lives of a number of well-known authors as George Orwell (author of 1984), Charles Dickens, Anton Chekhov, and Rudyard Kipling. Interesting quotations from the various authors' works are included to show how the abuse they suffered as children influenced their writings. In that sense his writing reminded me of the works of Alice Miller.
Primal patients and therapists, as well as others interested in whether having false memories is possible, would enjoy reading the chapter entitled, "Did it Really Happen?" Jumping into the debate of whether childhood traumas are fantasies and whether Freud really believed that they happened, Shengold quotes Freud as believing in the reality of sexual abuse: ". . . so often they are not phantasies but real memories." But he writes that Freud nonetheless believed some cases of abuse were fantasies.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
We must be more watchful for signs of domestic violence
SUZANNE DAWSON -- GUEST COLUMNIST
A year ago today my daughters, Kelsey and Hayley Byrne, were killed by their father at his home in Edmonds before he killed himself. Though I still struggle to find meaning in such a loss, I do know their deaths illustrate the need to look at the relationship between mental illness and domestic violence. I am one of many people who has lived, or is still living, with the fear of violence toward themselves or their children. We need to develop tools to detect potential violence and get help for the people involved.
I knew my ex-husband was troubled. I tried to get help but got no response because he was so good at keeping up appearances. Few people were able to see the fear, the anger and the depression. We saw many therapists and though some warned me of his potential for violence, only one stated this openly during the divorce. Though mention was made of a possible personality disorder, it was not openly discussed. He was able to hide his illness and divert attention from possible warning signs. I could not prove my concerns to his family, to friends, to the court or to child services.
Most of us are able to accept our failures, faults and fragility openly. My ex-husband got stuck. His illness affected his ability to manage the pressures of a job, a marriage and parenting. When things did not work out, he became angry and blamed me, then denied a problem. He lived in an alternate reality and any conflict with that reality was attacked. The divorce brought out examples of this conflict, issues he identified in his suicide note. He cited his frustration and anger with the divorce, the court and the custody arrangement.
We cannot stereotype who will be an abuser, much less identify who will take it to such a drastic level. Many abusers are outwardly pleasant people who appear to be martyred by bad luck or circumstance. Though my ex-husband was hostile to me, he appeared to be a loving father. I worried about his future, his increasing anger and his unchanged circumstances. However, there was no evidence of an immediate threat.
I strongly believe we need to establish new systems to help people on both sides of domestic violence. We need to define warning signs, pay attention to them and have a system in place to help those people affected. We need an environment where people -- therapists, the court, the lawyers, child services, guardians ad litem, teachers and school officials -- can talk to one another during hostile situations. In my case at least, it seemed like no one but me saw the big picture. No one seemed to be in a position to seek input from others that would provide enough information to fully understand the situation.
I have no easy answers. It will take money, time and talent to get it going, but it should make communities safer, especially for our children. I know it will be a lot of work.
But working to make the world better for our children is what life is all about. I have already learned of many families, our neighbors, who live with the fear of facing a similar tragedy. This violence is preventable. If my ex-husband had been able to accept help, perhaps it would have stopped his death and the deaths of my daughters.